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Friday, November 13, 2009

11:55 PM

liberation.

what other word can describe this day, better? nope, there's no other word. even after screaming, shouting, swearing, tearing up papers and more screaming after our very last paper today, it just doesn't seem right. the end of my 'o's just feels like the start of something tougher, something even more daunting and undulating than ever. what the fuck is going on. i actually miss studying, on the day of the end of all my national exams. i miss sitting down, doing ten-years-series, and spotting repeated questions in paper ones. hell, whenever a question was repeated, i feel so accomplished. like i've definitely studied my fucking best for my exams. and in the end? we'll just see some guy who apparently studied his ass off, and missing the whole process itself. it's so weird. we've all inevitably become nerds - after running, hey hey, we need to repay our oxygen debts, eh look! breadtalk, diffusion of gases, i can smell the damn bread from here. but anyways, it's been fun, so gotta move on. if i can make it to a JC, i'd go for SAJC, yeah. awesome shoes.

since i've only a month to spare and i'm no longer gonna work, might as well spent my time doing smth productive. i'll see what i can do, there're many stuffs actually, contributing to society, studying again. helping out in school. and there i have those haters, who hate me cause i'm too attached to the school. you can't blame me for that, i've been living there literally, for 4 years. how can you expect me to leave something so awesome in just 3 months? FUCK NO. CB.

and i really need to catch some sleep. in total about, 87 hours on average of 50 days of missing sleep during studies time for 'o's preparation work. graduation night's coming and i haven't got anything to wear, argh. and it's all guys btw, that seriously sucks. we're gonna do smth probably after the night has ended, and celebrate. i've no idea what, but it'll be fun. i look forward to going out with all of my peeps again, being all hyper, after being drained by these exams. i hope it'll be fun. i know so. i hope so.

it's day one, and i'm starting to feel a withdrawal symptom. but no worry, she'll be back soon. praying fervently yeah God. well, it's time for miracles, again.

here's a slice of life, ryan chong. throwing away entry proofs, reminiscing studies time, and getting my sleep back finally, tonight.

awesome shoes. 'cause i ain't giving up on us either.
stay strong, be strong. loves. hearts. linksz. shingz. booms.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

4:57 PM

2012 ! showing on 13th nov! (: woohooooooo. and this. THIS. is adam lambert's genius.
Time for miracles - adam lambert in his upcoming album (gonna be released on 23rd nov.) FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT.
BLOODY AWESOME k. ciao guys.

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just want to be with you
Cause living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it(feel it)
You know I can hear it(hear it)
So can you feel it feel it....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

Saturday, October 24, 2009

12:56 AM

just another 3 days to 'o's.

the fucking honey is damn sweet, made me damn high. ARGH. can't study, can't sleep. omg. oh well. coping well. with my subjects yeah. but there's so much to study. so much to do. ten years series and prelim papers's a normal routine.
eat, sleep, shit, study. it's all i do now, at least for the next 20 odd days. will someone please wake me up when my 'o's end? facebook's still a constant distraction. ipod too. it's so hard, to concentrate. i should find a way back soon.
wish you were here with me.
you're everywhere i go;
you're everything i see.
and we can't hide;
the faith in our eyes.
and we can't lie,
neither of us can deny.
corny; but true.
it's another 385 days, till the end of your 'o's, taking the end date as the same as mine.
we'll tahan. we will.

Red - Daniel Merriweather

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

6:51 PM

Which to bury - Us or The Hatchet? - Relient K.

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget

and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for not

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...

Monday, September 21, 2009

1:48 AM

it's been so long, isn't it. whoa, my last post proper was made like in july? HAHAH.
anyway, it's one plus in the morning and i can't get myself to sleep, again. like those other lazy weekends where i try to study, nothing fruitful actually comes out. instead i get trapped in my own little world of ipod and random playlists.
yeah, simple but tragic.
it's another 35 days 'o' levels and am i worried? i don't know for sure. it seems like i've done enough but as i reach for my pencil to write the answers for the ten year series questions, i still make the same mistakes. frustrating isn't it. the good thing's that, i've got company. studying with my peeps just seems a little more comforting than just staring blankly at the same monochrome words on the tys papers.
yes, omg, it's still only one plus and i can't pull myself to dreamland, no i can't.
i feel like calling up someone but that would just make me plain freaking selfish for compromising their sleep as well.
i can't fucking go to sleep, omg. sitting up in the bed, just thinking about every sixteen-year-old's worries and doubts and other what-have-yous. exams and other love-related troubles.
"oh if the sun revolved around the world, it'd make things so much simpler." infer from this source, sob. well, hitler, stalin and mussolini can go and kiss my ass.
arghhhhh, see! i didn't intend for this to be a long post but i've so much to say, so much to write. my hair's growing at a rate of 0.000000001cm/s. is it a minimum or maximum value? HA. ADDITIONAL MATH JOKE.
i'm still having the time of my life. 35 days to go and i'm looking forward to it.
while i'm at it, i got 22 points for my prelims L1R5. my target for 'o's : 7 points.
great. missed the target by just a teeny minute little FIFTEEN points. potest qui vult, definitely.
my left eye's been twitching the whole day and my right eye hurts like HELL. i've no idea why, mom said it's bad luck, i say it's eye-spasm. i can't find the moon and it's supposed to be the eighth month of the lunar calendar, where the hell is damn thing. new teacher Paul Robson at b.c. said people react differently to full-moon, hahah, hilarious guy he is.
oh. and happy birthday nicole ng bi zhen, fat fourteen. it's just alliteration, don't kancheonn.
yupp, the lights at the coffeeshop opposite my place are officially switched off! the neon lights keep me up. yeah i'm kidding. still breathing heavily at this unfortunate situation i am in right now leads me to think of my past years in st pat's. it's been truly awesome and no words can aptly describe my second-home. hope mr.lak doesn't mind though. heart and body, mind and soul. recall the times when i sat up during new year's eve just to watch avatar and the first sunset of the year, ALONE.
whoa, it'd be quite cool if i shared it with someone else, then it truly wouldn't have been a waste of time watching that circular, supernova rise beyond the flat, white clouds.
i better close my eyes and conceal my iris, and get back to forcing myself to sleep, i'll be at my cousin's tomorrow by noon. that means, 0830 get up to TRY and mugg.
i'm hungry so later i'll secrete glycogen from my islets of langerhans in my liver, HAHAHA. so long, nerds! your intellectual jokes won't fool me.

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

10:31 PM

this one's for those lovers out there, don't give up just yet!
you'll make it soon enough.

There're some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[X4]

Saturday, August 8, 2009

11:11 PM

i just wanna share this, it is the most beautiful prayer ever.

PEACE PRAYER OF ST FRANCIS.

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.